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Overthinking things - It's not so bad if you OVERTHINK it. It's weird how come I didn't think of blogging about this unique but also very common talent of me which is overthinking things. I never really realized I am an overthinker until I saw some memes and read some posts on it on social media. Overthinking as the name says is nothing but spending unhealthy amount of time thinking about things that happened to you, or is going to happen, or you want it to happen, or want it to happen like, or if it doesn't happens, and if happens then what will happen and it goes on... You create your own scenarios in your head, arguments, predictions and so many other things, you create your own versions of people and things and experiment with them. You can even go on a date with your crush just by thinking inside and fulfill your fantasies, it's amazing. The possibilities are literally endless inside your amazing mind.  Overthinking I guess is underrated. It is really un...

Without Diversity, Life would be Boring (Essay) I wrote this in class as the topic was given during Behavioral Science class. So here we go: I think this statement makes very much sense that without diversity, life would be boring. Diversity around is it what makes life so special and interesting. In simple words, if everything around us would be similar then there would not be much things to see and appreciate. It would be really boring experiencing the same thing over and over again. Our planet and human civilization is hugely diversified. Mankind has been living for thousand of years and we have made hundreds of cultures and traditions, unique in their own way and diversified. Every country and even states have their own uniqueness to discover and explore. We meet so many kinds of people throughout our life, each of them has their own unique story and different experiences. When we get to know them, we find out about things we have never known, we learn about more about the w...

The Dream of Having a Successful Youtube Channel... I first found Youtube about 10-11 years ago, around 2009-2010 and I knew it is going to be the future and I felt like I should have a channel too where I upload videos and have an audience who loves watching my content. I was very new to the world of Internet and I was also little. Like 9-10 years old, kids who are this age at present time are very smart but I, at that time was not so smart. I created my first Youtube channel on April 5, 2010. I didn't even know how to record a proper video and edit it, or use a screen recorder on PC. But I did what I knew. The name of that Youtube channel was TheNfst (full name The Need for Speed Team). It still exists as my first Youtube channel. It is history and it brings intense nostalgia, but the most amazing thing is that it is not even a complete decade old yet. So much can happen in 10 years. It is so beautiful and precious for me, I was at a very different time back then. But...

Altered Carbon & YOU Season 2 - Netflix Shows Review.. No Major Spoilers After finishing EOTFW, I had started this Cyberpunk Science Fiction series named Altered Carbon. Before starting it, I was like what the heck I do with my life now lol, it was hard picking a show. Altered Carbon isn't highly popular as other shows I have watched and has only one season till now, I think Season 2 dropped a few days ago or will, or maybe today I don't know lol but it was around 20ish February 2020. So I started watching it, the intro was beautiful with it's soundtrack and then it begin. It is set around 300 years in the future where you can live as much as you can, also do much more if you are rich.  While I was watching this show, I got so many pretty amazing thoughts, so many ideas and just damn wow things. I was like let's put it all on blog, put all the thoughts in words. It was Inspiring. Altered Carbon is a work of art, not many shows or movies make me thin...

The End of the F***ing World Season 1 I finished this another good show 10 February 2020. I had watched YOU S1 before and I needed something new and different, and Netflix suggested me this. So I did start watching this and after finishing the episode 1, I just felt that this series will be simple yet beautiful. It's basically about a boy and a girl who are both very weird in their own ways and they find each other and get in a relationship very quickly, it wasn't really a relationship at first but the more they spent time with each other the closer they got. The problems they created and the trouble they got in, which created an ending I didn't expect. I loved how simple they were with each other during the starting episodes. The show was funny and dark at the same time. I love simple things, the simplest things can also be the most beautiful ones. After finishing this season 1 I didn't continue season 2 though. For me the show ended there, or maybe I'll ...

Being single on Valentine's Day 2020. I swear sometimes it really feels time is passing too fast. Last year's 14th Feb doesn't feels like a year has been passed. I never really care too much about Valentine's Day and being single or being single on this day. I have been single my entire life, no pls no long distance relationship counting which wasn't even a proper relationship. It's 2020 and I am still single. I wanna say this.. I am caring too much about this Valentine's day then I have probably did in my previous life years. It is just feeling so sad and empty. I really wanted to be complete with someone this year, I had expectations and hopes. Seeing all these posts on Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, Snapchat etc. On Valentine's, most are memes and most people who post are single lol but I don't know when I'll finally get a girlfriend. I care about it now, I really want someone to love and someone I can love. I have waited enough in my li...

Sleeping 6 Hours per day for about a week.. it's cool I am at least getting some ideas to blog about. Last year 2019, I probably slept more than 12 hours a day for more than 100 days, but 12 hours of sleep is oversleeping. Like too much sleep. Maybe not 100 days but I spent almost every day of my summer break sleeping alot. I would go sleep at 11-12 night and wake up at 12pm or sometimes up to 2pm next day. It's wasting more than half of your day just doing nothing but sleeping. It's a total waste as now I think. But this recent week has been different or say February in general. When I stay at home I sleep alot, like 10 hours minimum. I am a very lazy person and I love sleep too much lol, I guess most people do. But since I started going back to college and staying at PG, my sleep habits changes. At home I am not able to stay late at night but I can wake up later. At PG I sleep at late night but I have to wake up at a fixed scheduled time, I definitely don't wan...

Giving Classroom PowerPoint Presentations. I am in college, school days are long gone and I am living my fresher college life (first year) for the second time, what if I tell you I never gave a single PowerPoint presentation in class. It's like this as far as I can remember. During BHM days, our teachers would tell us to make PPTs on various topics and I'd do that pretty nicely, but it was just making these presentations and that's it. I would get marks on the basis of that. Not actually presenting it. Even in BJMC, I don't know if it's luck or what but my class students have presented PPTs multiple times over 1st semester, and I never gave a single one and still got marks lol. It's definitely luck and it felt good... Until today I realized I am making mistake like others. I made a PPT and presented it in class in front of the faculty and students for the first time, and I wasn't even prepared for what I had put on the PPT. I still went through all but I...

Why I am back to reading Books.. again? Well the answer is pretty much very simple: because I felt like reading books, I missed reading them and all these feelings came very recently, say like 10 days or the starting of February 2020. I kinda felt 2020 is going to be a different year for me, well every year is but you know... Feels lol. I wanted to read but I had no new book to read and I surely didn't want to read pdf books on my phone because it sucks. It hurt my eyes and it just doesn't give you the experience a beautiful book does. But I am a lucky person sometimes and I found that my friend bought some new books and he told me about them, one of the book was Everything is F**ked. Basically the second part to The Subtle Art of Not Giving a (f word). I haven't read that one but I got the opportunity to read Everything is F**ked one. So I borrowed it and I finished it today, and damn it was such a beautiful amazing experience. I loved the book and the things I got...

Stranger Things 3, The Witcher & You Netflix - Recently Watched Shows No Spoiler I guess I've been on a spree lately to watch good shows as I have got my Netflix back. Just about 10 minutes ago I finished Season 1 of YOU. Damn it was so amazing, it was thriller and nicely done on every episode. It was two seasons but I guess I won't watch the season 2 next, instead I'll go for some movie now. This show was suggested by one of my female friend, first I thought it's some basic tv series about a girl and a boy but it was more than that. The caste was amazing and so was the acting. The way it was portrayed was done amazingly for sure. It was a kind of show I would binge watch but since I do other stuff, been reading a book so I watched few at a time. The ending episodes were really unexpected. Overall this is a must watch show and season 1. My friend said season 2 was okayish, so instead of watching the okayish I would rather watch some movie now. I have finished t...

My Life & Amity University, Noida's College Life Can't believe it's been 21 days already of 2020 and then at the same time it was kinda long. It depends on how you think it passed, I mean If I remember the New year's Eve while I was watching New Year programmes on TV with parents it feels like it was months ago but in between there has not been much interesting things. It was really cool trying that live a different life everyday thing. Because of that I found and saw some really good stuff on the Internet, particularly on YouTube. I found new music artists and music, also music I listened when I was 12-13 years old but didn't remember the song name. Watched amazing movies and oh Mr Robot finale was so good too.   Oh and I am back to college, yesterday which was Saturday was my first regular class day even though extra classes happened. It was fun being at Amity again, seeing old people and then I got introduced to two more. You know I would ...

So I started this - A Different Life, Everyday In my previous blog post, I talked about how I felt so boring and empty being at home for over a month and I didn't know what to do and how to pass time, it wasn't good because I wanted the starting of 2020s to be better than ever before, and then I thought why not break this loop and do something different everyday? It really sucks when you have to wake up everyday, at the same time, eating the same type of food, doing the same thing entire day, and then sleep and it goes on and on. It's a boring routine. I don't want my life to be like this anymore so I am making some changes, it's like my new year resolution which I will try my best to keep, even when college opens and I don't have to be at home everyday feeling bored. The goal is to live everyday, but do different things which is out of your everyday routine. It can be going for a 30 minute walk to the park or watching a political video you have no inte...

Thinking deep about life for the first time in 2020 I am the type of person who thinks alot, I am very nice at overthinking things which I find is both a blessing and curse. It's 10 January 2020 now and for the first time today I thought pretty deep about my life, I was actually really bored and felt empty like I didn't know what should I actually do. I haven't attended a single class of semester 2 after my exams ended due to some personal problems, I will not make this blog any more personal. I want this new decade to be really different and better than the previous one and I don't want my 2020 to be like 2019 which I have mentioned several times that it's the worst year of my entire life (so far). I see myself being better every single day, the more I learn the better I feel about myself. It's great. But this emptiness I felt today was bad, so I decided to watch some life talk videos on Youtube and I learned new things about life. I feel that I am liv...

Watched The Shawshank Redemption & Joker - My Review SPOILERS AS USUAL I am kind of a movie streak this January, from Mr Robot season 4 (show I know), Forrest Gump and now finished Shawshank Redemption and Joker. I watched the Shawshank Redemption on 7th January and Joker yesterday (8 January). Both movies were masterpieces on their own. Now I am feeling I should have reviewed as soon as I watched them because you know when it's a new day it's a different feeling and I was going to watch another movie but decided to review instead first. Forrest Gump and The Shawshank Redemption released same yea 1994 and considered are some best movies of all time, highly rated on imdb. Talking about Shawshank, it was a different movie for me as I had never watched a movie based on Prison life before completely, this is another movie that is totally based on some amazing life lessons and simplicity. I liked the character of Andy so much, I mean he got cheated and then was accu...

Forrest Gump - Movie I fell in love with!  SPOILERS I watched this beautiful movie yesterday (5 January 2020) after feeling really empty because I had finished Mr. Robot Season 4 which was another masterpiece. I didn't know how I spend my time so I thought why not watch a new movie? I opened google and searched for best life movies, opened an imdb website and Forrest Gump was at top. I didn't know anything about this movie, I didn't read a single thing about it. I just started watching it and within some minutes I already started loving it and when I finished it after some hours, it became one of my most favorite movie. Everything that I saw in this movie was perfect, from acting to life lessons it was a great experience. There was one scene where Forrest has those braces and he was hanging out with Jenny and suddenly some bullies come outta nowhere on the cycle and start throwing stones at Forrest so Forrest starts running after Jenny says him "Run Forrest ...

Mr. Robot Season 4 Finale - Finally finished this MASTERPIECE - SPOILERS -  Mr. Robot was always one of my most favorite work of art and TV show and a few hours ago I finished it's last episode and hence finished the show. Yea it ended finally, everything came to an end. I loved it, loved it so much that I feel like the things I have seen through the series it will change my life. I had forgotten about this show actually after season 3 and the gap that happened in between, the gap was 2019 but just 3 days ago I started season 4 and finished by today (Sunday). If I rank it among my other most fav shows which are Breaking Bad and Black Mirror. I think I will place Mr. Robot at the top. The show's last 3 episodes were so mind boggling for me that I was like wow, what just happened. It was something I could never predict. For some moments I thought White Rose was trying to do the right thing from starting and her plan actually worked even though Elliot tried his best to ...

Goodbye 2019 and 2010s, Hello 2020 and 2020s (Happy New Year) It's 1 January 2020, damn I almost wrote 2019 there as I was typing. It's going to take a while to not make these date mistakes. I am so happy that 2019 ended and If you have read previous posts on this blog then you will get to know why I am saying this. Or let me just sum it up a bit. 2019 was the most different year of my entire life so far, and by that I mean the saddest and most depressing year of my life but then there had been moments that were pretty great as well. I won't say 2019 had its ups and downs, it was mostly downs for me. It wasn't just for me but for my entire family and now as it ended, I see much brighter days coming. I just feel it you know. I have learned a lot of things in the last year and many of them also helped me for character development. and not just 2019 ended but the 2010s decade. Now If I talk about the decade I think it is the greatest decade the humanity has ever w...

I just couldn't focus at all properly - Semester 1 University Exams Today is 2nd December 2019, my exams started 21 November 2019 and now only one exam left which is on 5th. I know I was so happy switching my course from Hotel Management to Journalism & Mass Communication. Because I had interest on this field but it's the focus that I am not able to put at all during examination breaks. Almost all the exams I have given so far have been just "passed" like and some are really bad. I don't know I try to study through the notes but my mind diverts so much by my smartphone, mainly social medias or music or laptop or basically anything. It's not like this used to happen with me with all the exams. Before my exam started I had focus and I was studying properly but suddenly in the recent weeks something has changed, I honestly can't put the real focus, the focus that makes me do great things. I remember during the start of the semester, I was like I ...

My thoughts after watching Bollywood movie GURU I finished watching another Netflix movie today (19 November 2019), and well my exams are starting from the day after tomorrow of first semester BJMC. I am supposed to study all day right? No. I study when I feel I want to, so I enjoyed watching this amazing Bollywood movie Guru from 2007. I have mentioned this before in previous post that I pick the movies or shows I watch very carefully or nicely and Guru was an amazing movie. And it kind of feels sad I watched this in 2019 completely when it was released in 2007. I did watch some parts of it on TV when my parents used to watch but that time I had not even a little interest of watching such movies. I mean I was little back then and I had no taste of good content. I read a little about it's reviews and what it is about and thought let's get inspired Arpit! This movie is based on Dhirubhai Ambani, the founder of Reliance Industries. India's biggest Indian tycoon, he had a d...

Talking about Black Mirror (Netflix Series) & My Experience With It. *Spoiler Alert Baby* Not going to ruin the stories but still some things HAHA.  I don't really watch movies or series that much but still when I do, I pick them very nicely because I know I am going to spend quite a lot of time on it. Black Mirror is one of those series I found on Netflix. And I finished the series completely yesterday, with no episodes left to watch anymore. Kind of sad. I remember back in 2019 January I think when I was doing Hotel Management and I was living in PG with cool roommates, Netflix was a good way to pass time and it suggested me this Black Mirror Bandersnatch film quite often, like where ever I scrolled or whenever I opened, I see Bandersnatch. So I thought let's give it a try. Some minutes in and I was already blown away by it, the way it was presented. It was the first ever movie I watched which was interactive, like you could decide what you want to do in the movie. Y...

Pollution of Delhi NCR - Diwali After Effects Wow I can't believe finally I am going to write a blog post on a very different topic now, other than life or my internet things. It's finally November now and the winter is almost here. Delhi is the capital of the country I live in, India and I live in Gurgaon which is part of Delhi NCR and pollution is a very major case here, and it's every year's thing now that after Diwali the air quality gets extremely hazardous, so bad that in Delhi it has been declared emergency and schools are closed till 5 November. I am not an environmental expert but the condition that we are having in our country regarding pollution is very critical. Every year during Diwali time millions of crackers are burst causing pollution contributing to the extremely bad air quality.  Diwali is the biggest festival of India and it has it's own religious values you know and when people say that do not burst crackers this Diwali then many people...

Love, Introverts, Ignoring Love, Impact on Life, Relationships, Memories, Lessons & More... Hi to whoever is reading this right now, I hope you are doing great in life and even if you don't I know you will. I have my blessings with you no matter where you are. I am again updating this sweet blog after a while, recently I have been busy with college and as I moved to a PG near my college to just cancel out my daily 3-4 hours travelling time and have more fun. I don't bring my laptop there. So yeah let's begin! I am not going to write about a single topic today but about various things. Thanks to some people I text to on social media and share thoughts and because of that I get to think about various things during deep conversations. My crush still won't text me nicely and reply quick, she still takes more than a couple of hours between each message. I still like her, yeah still.. it doesn't even feels like a crush anymore but more than that. It will soon be ...