Love, Introverts, Ignoring Love, Impact on Life, Relationships, Memories, Lessons & More
Love, Introverts, Ignoring Love, Impact on Life, Relationships, Memories, Lessons & More...
Hi to whoever is reading this right now, I hope you are doing great in life and even if you don't I know you will. I have my blessings with you no matter where you are. I am again updating this sweet blog after a while, recently I have been busy with college and as I moved to a PG near my college to just cancel out my daily 3-4 hours travelling time and have more fun. I don't bring my laptop there. So yeah let's begin!
I am not going to write about a single topic today but about various things. Thanks to some people I text to on social media and share thoughts and because of that I get to think about various things during deep conversations. My crush still won't text me nicely and reply quick, she still takes more than a couple of hours between each message. I still like her, yeah still.. it doesn't even feels like a crush anymore but more than that. It will soon be 3 months since the first time I have saw her and fell for her. I think I am in love with her. And I talk to myself alot inside my brain that I love her so much and that I want her, but then the things I do in real life around her makes me think do I really want her? If I want her so bad then why do I even ignore her? In this blog I am going to get real personal and I don't even care sharing it with the world anymore. So whenever she is around me and when we don't have an eye contact I don't know why I just don't go to her and say hi and just start a conversation with sweet smile. I am not able to do that, she makes me real nervous, maybe because I am an introvert. The only time I even say hi or smile to her is when she do that to me and other than that I think I never really approached to her. I don't even have the guts seriously and it sucks. She makes me that nervous, I get weak around her. So I am single and then this happens.
I may be not really good at hints or everyone gets through the same phase and feelings but the way she is with me, it feels like she has something for me. It feels like she wants me too and she wants to get to know me. But I don't even let that happen, I don't let the ice break. And I want this bad habit of me to change. Recently I have read a post on Instagram which says something like when you are in your teens, make the most of it. It says that never deny affection or love towards anyone and admit it brutally and honest to whoever you have feelings for. You will never be able to love someone as a teen in your 30s. I am already 20 and I have ignored so many people in my entire life who showed that they have love for me or just say that they liked me. I could have made so many memories but I didn't and I still say it is still not too late.
I am not bragging here and I guess same happens with lots of people. There have been ALOT of people in my life who really showed they love me or crushed on me, but I never approached to them nicely and I hurt them because of that. I missed the chance to be with so many amazing people that came into my life and I could have known about them, their life, the person they are and shared my experiences with them and show them mine. I have always believed in this thing called soul mate and I believe that I will have one too. But even for that I will have to play my part too you know, my soul mate won't come to me directly and say that hey baby I am your soul mate and your search is over now. You can fall for faces and think you are in love with them but what about the person they are inside? If you really want to be in love with someone you will have to love everything about them. You will have to love their life! And I don't know my crush nicely yet, we haven't talked that much. But she really does feels like a sweet soul.
I want this part of me to change now, which is ignoring love and denying affection while I am around them. The thing that quite makes me nervous is the talking part. I have said this so many times but as I am an introvert I don't really know how I even talk to them and get comfortable around them. I know once I get comfortable, I won't feel this introvert feeling anymore and it will all be love. Just like I love my family.
Say I get in relationship with her and have moments and it works great, I finally get to experience the relationship I wanted (not long distance) but very unfortunately after a while it doesn't works out. And we break up. It's not end of the world. That is part of the life and I call it lesson. There are so many people all over the world who hurt themselves because they don't get the love they wanted and just so many problems. I am not someone who will make myself weaker because of that but I will stand strong and I know this is life. Happiness comes, it goes, sad days comes, it goes, happiness comes again and it happens all over life. Nobody lives happy there entire life. Sadness hits to everyone at various points of life. It's a fact and it should be kept in mind. The lessons you learn in life should make you a better person, you make mistakes too and other make mistakes as well, we are humans. Next time learn from the mistakes and don't repeat them and you will feel much better.
See I am a guy who takes relationships very seriously and I want my next relationship to be my last relationship. But there are people who have over 5 ex and dating another one. I won't curse on them, it's their life and they are living it the way they want. I honestly don't really care much lol. Good for them but I definitely hate people who use other people for their benefits, hurt them, cheat on them and you know the rest. Some people date different people to find the one they get most comfortable with and then focus on them. It's up to you how you make use of your life.
One of my friend said that she has a bad crush on someone at college but just because he is an introvert she doesn't really tries to talk to him. And I was like just because he is an introvert you won't approach him? Introverts are people too and it's a fact that the most creative people that lived on this planet and that are living have been/are introverts. We don't talk much but we have a lot going inside our mind. But trust me once we get comfortable, its amazing. Introverts can be obviously loved too and loved very hard. I say there are very high chances of an extrovert ditching you than an introvert lol. If you are an introvert too, be proud of who you are! But bring changes inside yourself and get better, keep getting better. I am doing a media course so obviously I will have to get better at communicating and I am working on it. If you have been reading this till now then damn I can't believe.
I am going to end this soon. Guys it is your life, you are so lucky. I mean extremely lucky to be living on this planet which is so rare and you are a beautiful human! If you have an internet connection, a device to read on and you are educated and healthy enough to be reading this. You are more than blessed! I love you! You will get alot of opportunities in your life, so many chances to make memories on and you can do alot! Do as many things as you can, be it doing a real life activity, reading books, comics or watching movies, shows, playing games, blogging etc. Make an impact on your life and on this planet. You can even change the world if you are dedicated and work hard enough and be remembered by alot of people. I want to change the world too you know? Let's see where my life takes me. I know I am quite lazy these days but this blog of myself inspired me to change for the better.
You can do it!
Hi to whoever is reading this right now, I hope you are doing great in life and even if you don't I know you will. I have my blessings with you no matter where you are. I am again updating this sweet blog after a while, recently I have been busy with college and as I moved to a PG near my college to just cancel out my daily 3-4 hours travelling time and have more fun. I don't bring my laptop there. So yeah let's begin!
I am not going to write about a single topic today but about various things. Thanks to some people I text to on social media and share thoughts and because of that I get to think about various things during deep conversations. My crush still won't text me nicely and reply quick, she still takes more than a couple of hours between each message. I still like her, yeah still.. it doesn't even feels like a crush anymore but more than that. It will soon be 3 months since the first time I have saw her and fell for her. I think I am in love with her. And I talk to myself alot inside my brain that I love her so much and that I want her, but then the things I do in real life around her makes me think do I really want her? If I want her so bad then why do I even ignore her? In this blog I am going to get real personal and I don't even care sharing it with the world anymore. So whenever she is around me and when we don't have an eye contact I don't know why I just don't go to her and say hi and just start a conversation with sweet smile. I am not able to do that, she makes me real nervous, maybe because I am an introvert. The only time I even say hi or smile to her is when she do that to me and other than that I think I never really approached to her. I don't even have the guts seriously and it sucks. She makes me that nervous, I get weak around her. So I am single and then this happens.
I may be not really good at hints or everyone gets through the same phase and feelings but the way she is with me, it feels like she has something for me. It feels like she wants me too and she wants to get to know me. But I don't even let that happen, I don't let the ice break. And I want this bad habit of me to change. Recently I have read a post on Instagram which says something like when you are in your teens, make the most of it. It says that never deny affection or love towards anyone and admit it brutally and honest to whoever you have feelings for. You will never be able to love someone as a teen in your 30s. I am already 20 and I have ignored so many people in my entire life who showed that they have love for me or just say that they liked me. I could have made so many memories but I didn't and I still say it is still not too late.
I am not bragging here and I guess same happens with lots of people. There have been ALOT of people in my life who really showed they love me or crushed on me, but I never approached to them nicely and I hurt them because of that. I missed the chance to be with so many amazing people that came into my life and I could have known about them, their life, the person they are and shared my experiences with them and show them mine. I have always believed in this thing called soul mate and I believe that I will have one too. But even for that I will have to play my part too you know, my soul mate won't come to me directly and say that hey baby I am your soul mate and your search is over now. You can fall for faces and think you are in love with them but what about the person they are inside? If you really want to be in love with someone you will have to love everything about them. You will have to love their life! And I don't know my crush nicely yet, we haven't talked that much. But she really does feels like a sweet soul.
I want this part of me to change now, which is ignoring love and denying affection while I am around them. The thing that quite makes me nervous is the talking part. I have said this so many times but as I am an introvert I don't really know how I even talk to them and get comfortable around them. I know once I get comfortable, I won't feel this introvert feeling anymore and it will all be love. Just like I love my family.
Say I get in relationship with her and have moments and it works great, I finally get to experience the relationship I wanted (not long distance) but very unfortunately after a while it doesn't works out. And we break up. It's not end of the world. That is part of the life and I call it lesson. There are so many people all over the world who hurt themselves because they don't get the love they wanted and just so many problems. I am not someone who will make myself weaker because of that but I will stand strong and I know this is life. Happiness comes, it goes, sad days comes, it goes, happiness comes again and it happens all over life. Nobody lives happy there entire life. Sadness hits to everyone at various points of life. It's a fact and it should be kept in mind. The lessons you learn in life should make you a better person, you make mistakes too and other make mistakes as well, we are humans. Next time learn from the mistakes and don't repeat them and you will feel much better.
See I am a guy who takes relationships very seriously and I want my next relationship to be my last relationship. But there are people who have over 5 ex and dating another one. I won't curse on them, it's their life and they are living it the way they want. I honestly don't really care much lol. Good for them but I definitely hate people who use other people for their benefits, hurt them, cheat on them and you know the rest. Some people date different people to find the one they get most comfortable with and then focus on them. It's up to you how you make use of your life.
One of my friend said that she has a bad crush on someone at college but just because he is an introvert she doesn't really tries to talk to him. And I was like just because he is an introvert you won't approach him? Introverts are people too and it's a fact that the most creative people that lived on this planet and that are living have been/are introverts. We don't talk much but we have a lot going inside our mind. But trust me once we get comfortable, its amazing. Introverts can be obviously loved too and loved very hard. I say there are very high chances of an extrovert ditching you than an introvert lol. If you are an introvert too, be proud of who you are! But bring changes inside yourself and get better, keep getting better. I am doing a media course so obviously I will have to get better at communicating and I am working on it. If you have been reading this till now then damn I can't believe.
I am going to end this soon. Guys it is your life, you are so lucky. I mean extremely lucky to be living on this planet which is so rare and you are a beautiful human! If you have an internet connection, a device to read on and you are educated and healthy enough to be reading this. You are more than blessed! I love you! You will get alot of opportunities in your life, so many chances to make memories on and you can do alot! Do as many things as you can, be it doing a real life activity, reading books, comics or watching movies, shows, playing games, blogging etc. Make an impact on your life and on this planet. You can even change the world if you are dedicated and work hard enough and be remembered by alot of people. I want to change the world too you know? Let's see where my life takes me. I know I am quite lazy these days but this blog of myself inspired me to change for the better.
You can do it!
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