I just couldn't focus at all properly - Semester 1 University Exams
I just couldn't focus at all properly - Semester 1 University Exams
Today is 2nd December 2019, my exams started 21 November 2019 and now only one exam left which is on 5th. I know I was so happy switching my course from Hotel Management to Journalism & Mass Communication. Because I had interest on this field but it's the focus that I am not able to put at all during examination breaks. Almost all the exams I have given so far have been just "passed" like and some are really bad. I don't know I try to study through the notes but my mind diverts so much by my smartphone, mainly social medias or music or laptop or basically anything. It's not like this used to happen with me with all the exams. Before my exam started I had focus and I was studying properly but suddenly in the recent weeks something has changed, I honestly can't put the real focus, the focus that makes me do great things.
I remember during the start of the semester, I was like I would go through what I have been taught everyday so I won't have problems at the end but the entire semester has passed within blinks of eyes and now I am stuck here writing this. I think I know one of the reason behind it but I don't want to put it here, one of those reasons are the problems that I go though in my life, maybe I am more idgaf type of guy now who doesn't really care about getting good grades anymore. But it's true I never really care about marks, I always wanted to go through concepts. I don't know what's gonna be the result of this semester. But still I feel alot that I did way better in exams during Hotel Management time. I am not regretting this course and it's subjects but it's something I need to change in myself and get all my focus back. I don't want to be a normal guy living a normal life, and to be not normal I will have to be different and I will have to work hard. I am feeling sad today. I am thinking what I have even achieved during this semester? Did my personality improve? Am I a better person in various skills than before? Did I learn different things and gained more knowledge? Of course I achieved some things but I still can't find the answers of some of these things myself. Lol I maybe getting confusing right now. Time will tell more. But one of the main goals apart from academic learning is improving myself as a person and gain more practical skills and knowledge. I don't care about theory much.
So yeah, last exam on 5th December. That's the end of Semester 1 of BJMC. I still feel great thinking my life gave me second change to re-live it all again. But then comes the problems... I may not even get into Semester 2 you know? Nah it's not about failing or anything else. It's about the problems that haunted me and my family the entire 2019. A month is still left of this horrible year I will never forget. Still hoping from you... 2019. I hope at least the ending is beautiful.
Today is 2nd December 2019, my exams started 21 November 2019 and now only one exam left which is on 5th. I know I was so happy switching my course from Hotel Management to Journalism & Mass Communication. Because I had interest on this field but it's the focus that I am not able to put at all during examination breaks. Almost all the exams I have given so far have been just "passed" like and some are really bad. I don't know I try to study through the notes but my mind diverts so much by my smartphone, mainly social medias or music or laptop or basically anything. It's not like this used to happen with me with all the exams. Before my exam started I had focus and I was studying properly but suddenly in the recent weeks something has changed, I honestly can't put the real focus, the focus that makes me do great things.
I remember during the start of the semester, I was like I would go through what I have been taught everyday so I won't have problems at the end but the entire semester has passed within blinks of eyes and now I am stuck here writing this. I think I know one of the reason behind it but I don't want to put it here, one of those reasons are the problems that I go though in my life, maybe I am more idgaf type of guy now who doesn't really care about getting good grades anymore. But it's true I never really care about marks, I always wanted to go through concepts. I don't know what's gonna be the result of this semester. But still I feel alot that I did way better in exams during Hotel Management time. I am not regretting this course and it's subjects but it's something I need to change in myself and get all my focus back. I don't want to be a normal guy living a normal life, and to be not normal I will have to be different and I will have to work hard. I am feeling sad today. I am thinking what I have even achieved during this semester? Did my personality improve? Am I a better person in various skills than before? Did I learn different things and gained more knowledge? Of course I achieved some things but I still can't find the answers of some of these things myself. Lol I maybe getting confusing right now. Time will tell more. But one of the main goals apart from academic learning is improving myself as a person and gain more practical skills and knowledge. I don't care about theory much.
So yeah, last exam on 5th December. That's the end of Semester 1 of BJMC. I still feel great thinking my life gave me second change to re-live it all again. But then comes the problems... I may not even get into Semester 2 you know? Nah it's not about failing or anything else. It's about the problems that haunted me and my family the entire 2019. A month is still left of this horrible year I will never forget. Still hoping from you... 2019. I hope at least the ending is beautiful.
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