My 20th Birthday - 3 October 2019
My Birthday - 3 October 2019
It's my birthday today and I still can't believe that I am 20 years old now. Time is really mind blowing I mean just thinking that I have lived 20 years of my life already is wow. I feel like I am really growing up too fast but I don't feel like being 20. As my friends say I still behave like a child lol. Well not really anymore, I used to be like this before but things have quite changed me. I don't like to open up too much now. Yesterday I was like this is going to be the worst birthday of my life so far and nobody really cares if it's my birthday tomorrow. As I am good at making people distant from me. Like my hotel management friends who aren't really friends anymore, well most of the closest ones. So I woke up with lots of wishes and birthday stories of me, I didn't really expect that much of love. Even my class teacher wished me on the class group and then the students, even those people wished me I never really talked to. That made me feel special. It's only 12:39PM as I am writing this.
And the plans for today? Well no plans for today. I never really celebrate my birthday. Every year on this day I go evening watch a movie with my family and eat out, been doing this since last 6-7 years. But this year I am not even doing that. I am not going anywhere today but I told my college mates that I will go watch a movie and eat out and have all day family plans. Today was college but I didn't go. Last year I did the same and in school to I went once only. Actually I do have plans on celebrating my birthday but that will happen after a week. I will do real party for the first time with my school friends and my best mates in a club or lounge. I have never really did this in my entire life for my birthday but as 2 of my friends have birthday too in October so we are celebrating together on the same day. Also got calls from my friends wishing me and got blessings too. I don't like to believe in blessings anymore because as I have mentioned this alot 2019 has been hell for me and I thought today will be bad too. My family's condition is pretty bad at present time as well and all this makes me feel sad. Wait why I am even talking about this lol.
So yeah I am 20 now and going into my twenties of life. Soon as I will grow up I will have more and more responsibilities. I still haven't matured enough to be 20 years old. I need to learn and experience so many things and do things to get successful in life. I will develop my real life personality more and improve various skills, communication skills being the most important here. 19th year of my life had been crazy to be honest because I experienced alot of things while I was in PG and doing Hotel Management, I can count my initial BJMC days here too. I don't know what the 20th year of my life will be like and year 2020. I can just hope for the best and best blessings because I have seen really bad days in 2019 and in 19th year of my life. I can just wish to the God. I always wanted fame, success and money. Maybe it will really happen?
Happy 20th Birthday to me.
It's my birthday today and I still can't believe that I am 20 years old now. Time is really mind blowing I mean just thinking that I have lived 20 years of my life already is wow. I feel like I am really growing up too fast but I don't feel like being 20. As my friends say I still behave like a child lol. Well not really anymore, I used to be like this before but things have quite changed me. I don't like to open up too much now. Yesterday I was like this is going to be the worst birthday of my life so far and nobody really cares if it's my birthday tomorrow. As I am good at making people distant from me. Like my hotel management friends who aren't really friends anymore, well most of the closest ones. So I woke up with lots of wishes and birthday stories of me, I didn't really expect that much of love. Even my class teacher wished me on the class group and then the students, even those people wished me I never really talked to. That made me feel special. It's only 12:39PM as I am writing this.
And the plans for today? Well no plans for today. I never really celebrate my birthday. Every year on this day I go evening watch a movie with my family and eat out, been doing this since last 6-7 years. But this year I am not even doing that. I am not going anywhere today but I told my college mates that I will go watch a movie and eat out and have all day family plans. Today was college but I didn't go. Last year I did the same and in school to I went once only. Actually I do have plans on celebrating my birthday but that will happen after a week. I will do real party for the first time with my school friends and my best mates in a club or lounge. I have never really did this in my entire life for my birthday but as 2 of my friends have birthday too in October so we are celebrating together on the same day. Also got calls from my friends wishing me and got blessings too. I don't like to believe in blessings anymore because as I have mentioned this alot 2019 has been hell for me and I thought today will be bad too. My family's condition is pretty bad at present time as well and all this makes me feel sad. Wait why I am even talking about this lol.
So yeah I am 20 now and going into my twenties of life. Soon as I will grow up I will have more and more responsibilities. I still haven't matured enough to be 20 years old. I need to learn and experience so many things and do things to get successful in life. I will develop my real life personality more and improve various skills, communication skills being the most important here. 19th year of my life had been crazy to be honest because I experienced alot of things while I was in PG and doing Hotel Management, I can count my initial BJMC days here too. I don't know what the 20th year of my life will be like and year 2020. I can just hope for the best and best blessings because I have seen really bad days in 2019 and in 19th year of my life. I can just wish to the God. I always wanted fame, success and money. Maybe it will really happen?
Happy 20th Birthday to me.
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