Needing Good Communication Skills & Confidence in Life

 Needing Good Communication Skills & Confidence in Life - By PrO_RaZe

I am an introvert, I've been an introvert since I was little but it's mainly I guess because I never got a good environment where I could develop my communication skills properly. Today I'm just gonna talk about this thing called communication skills, how nicely you can exchange information with someone or talk, or with a group of people. Every school I've been in wasn't that good, that I could do what I feel like or get an environment where I can improve talking skills, my last school was huge with a lot of students unlike previous ones but then the students there, most of them were people I couldn't relate to properly. I had nice friends, made very nice ones that I still am in contact with. But because of previous years of my life I became an introvert type of person or say ambivert. I don't know where I fit correctly lol but if I relate to someone nicely I can talk good. Here's one thing though that I feel like and it is this huge difference I have between communicating with people in real life vs. communicating online. 

When I am chatting online, when I am typing it feels different. Honestly when I'm online I am not even an introvert or ambivert but I can get into extrovert mode. It's because I feel very much comfortable here and I have this thing where I can produce lots of thoughts while typing. My mind feels better like this and  if I start relating with someone I am chatting with, I can type A LOT of paragraphs. I can talk about anything. 

This is a great skill but it kind of sucks this exists only when I'm online so far... My mind works better while typing because I can think in peace. Today an incident happened where in my online class, teacher asked me to plan something on a topic and I had to speak, but I wasn't comfortable there so I told him can I write instead and take some time. He agreed and other students started talking but I wish I was good at speaking too. The things that I can do while typing wasn't only limited to typing but I could speak too. 

This would solve a lot of problems I face in real life which requires communicating. I guess one of my life goals is to make me great in person as well. If I was an extrovert, my life would have been so different. I missed a lot of opportunities and ruined some things because I was not able to express what was on my mind. I'm sure a lot of people relate to this. I kind of lack confidence there. But I feel this phase I went through during Lockdown has changed me. I feel like I've gotten better in person too. I am different than what I was pre-pandemic.

 Some things had happened with me, experiences which made me shut my mouth more in person but I feel I was trying to be someone else. Someone I am not.

 I think the person I am is someone who can do anything and say anything without caring about the opinion of others. Someone who is crazy and loves to have fun, and exploring and meeting tons of people. Someone who wants to get known by the people and someone who wants to make an impact to the world. Someone who is himself and doesn't work on other's expectations. Someone who wants his each day to be memorable, that he did something. That's kind of who I am. 

And I have to be like that. So what I am online has to be in person too. Excelling in communication is very essential in one's life. I know.. I know many great people have been introverts. But they were like that and chose to be like that, I have to improve. I want to be a better version of myself because I keep on evolving. I am never the same. If I could express what goes on in my mind with confidence and without fear, I'd do wonders in person. But as I said I keep on changing, maybe one day I'll look back to this post and say this wasn't really necessary. You were the best like that. Believe in yourself.