The Rich Party & Friendly Life I always wanted! - Expectations from Life and What it is!
The Rich Party & Friendly Life I always wanted! - Expectations from Life and What it is!
Today's topic is going to be a little different and I will talk about the expectations I had and well have with my life. When I was joining Amity for the first time with Hotel Management course I knew I am going to an University which is quite famous for all the rich kids there having a party and fun culture. My life not gonna lie has been really boring and dull. I always wanted to have a lot of friends and just having a lot of fun going to different places and having all the fun. But then I have some problems which is that I am an Introvert type of person. I am good at chatting online but when it comes to talking in person I get problems. I don't know how to actually start a good conversation and actually keep it and make people like me and my personality. I thought being around with people at Amity will improve my personality and communication skills and I will make some really nice friends.
Fast forward to 1 year I am doing BJMC (Journalism and Mass Communication) and left Hotel Management. I don't talk to any of my so called HM friends anymore. They are a memory now. This new course is different where there are a lot of cool people coming from rich families and having the kind of life I wish I had. Hotel Management did improve my personality and overall me but to a very little percentage. I still have problems making friends. The kind of friends I want. It feels bad that I want to make my self an extrovert person but I can't seem to improve. I want to hangout with my friends and go to amazing places, have amazing talks, do parties, go to clubs and lounges, get drunk, a little smoke and just have so much fun. I want to have some really cool friends but I can't even talk to them properly. I don't know what I should be saying. A few months ago I thought I won't care about myself and just be myself and I can't be myself anymore if I want to change myself into a better version of me.
During weekends I have nothing to do and I sit at home all day mostly doing nothing but staring at screen, living in a digital world that doesn't really does well to me. I am very bad at socializing properly to people and that is what that makes me insecure about myself. I don't want to spend 3 years of my college life where no one really cares about me. I always said I want to live my college life to the fullest but for that I will have to change. People get bored of me after talking for a while because I don't seem interesting to them. I can like write amazing paragraphs about things while texting but when it comes to saying that in person I get really bad.
I am sure a lot of people living in this world have socializing problems like this. I can't just be myself like this, this version of me is just not good enough. I remember one of my friends who was in HM with me said that if you want to know what to say and how to get with people, you will have to actually experience it with them. So to get along with the rich buddies I see at Amity, I will have to try to get along with them by learning from them. See I am not rich, and I have spent alot of time on the Internet being a different version of what I actually am in real life. I still have hope with my life and in 3 years I wish I have alot of fun, parties, random hangouts, and have so many great friends and memories I cherish for my entire life!
Today's topic is going to be a little different and I will talk about the expectations I had and well have with my life. When I was joining Amity for the first time with Hotel Management course I knew I am going to an University which is quite famous for all the rich kids there having a party and fun culture. My life not gonna lie has been really boring and dull. I always wanted to have a lot of friends and just having a lot of fun going to different places and having all the fun. But then I have some problems which is that I am an Introvert type of person. I am good at chatting online but when it comes to talking in person I get problems. I don't know how to actually start a good conversation and actually keep it and make people like me and my personality. I thought being around with people at Amity will improve my personality and communication skills and I will make some really nice friends.
Fast forward to 1 year I am doing BJMC (Journalism and Mass Communication) and left Hotel Management. I don't talk to any of my so called HM friends anymore. They are a memory now. This new course is different where there are a lot of cool people coming from rich families and having the kind of life I wish I had. Hotel Management did improve my personality and overall me but to a very little percentage. I still have problems making friends. The kind of friends I want. It feels bad that I want to make my self an extrovert person but I can't seem to improve. I want to hangout with my friends and go to amazing places, have amazing talks, do parties, go to clubs and lounges, get drunk, a little smoke and just have so much fun. I want to have some really cool friends but I can't even talk to them properly. I don't know what I should be saying. A few months ago I thought I won't care about myself and just be myself and I can't be myself anymore if I want to change myself into a better version of me.
During weekends I have nothing to do and I sit at home all day mostly doing nothing but staring at screen, living in a digital world that doesn't really does well to me. I am very bad at socializing properly to people and that is what that makes me insecure about myself. I don't want to spend 3 years of my college life where no one really cares about me. I always said I want to live my college life to the fullest but for that I will have to change. People get bored of me after talking for a while because I don't seem interesting to them. I can like write amazing paragraphs about things while texting but when it comes to saying that in person I get really bad.
I am sure a lot of people living in this world have socializing problems like this. I can't just be myself like this, this version of me is just not good enough. I remember one of my friends who was in HM with me said that if you want to know what to say and how to get with people, you will have to actually experience it with them. So to get along with the rich buddies I see at Amity, I will have to try to get along with them by learning from them. See I am not rich, and I have spent alot of time on the Internet being a different version of what I actually am in real life. I still have hope with my life and in 3 years I wish I have alot of fun, parties, random hangouts, and have so many great friends and memories I cherish for my entire life!
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